A little while ago, I started getting this ache in the back of my head. Then, my stomach started playing up. Then, I started getting this weird feeling that I was running out of energy, and that I was getting pretty weak.
In the past, I'd have completely freaked out and started fearing the worst, but thank God, God's now given me other options for dealing with my periodic bouts of illness.
I stuck some seeds on various energy source points, to see which meridians may be 'out', and it came back with: bladder, spleen and half a lung.
Spleen wasn't a big surprise - everyone's spleen is shot one way or another, and I'll be shocked when I actually get a strong spleen test, for once. But bladder and lung was interesting.
Lung keeps coming up in my diagnostics, even though I don't have any obvious lung issues. After thinking about it, and praying about it, I'm starting to get some insights that lung has to do with renewal, and leaving the past behind.
It's often much easier said than done, because it doesn't just mean changing the externals, which is relatively easy to do; it also means changing your internal belief system, ideas and assumptions about yourself, and your life, which can be really hard work.
I'm about half-way through the process, so far. Lots of stuff is shifting, but I'm still getting a little caught on, and stuck behind, outmoded ways of thinking, and that showed up in my seed diagnostic. The lung meridian runs down both arms, and one arm was 'weak' and one arm was 'strong'. Half-way there.
But bladder has been the real surprise for me. It's been consistently weak for months and months now. I was pondering what it all means, as is my way, and rechecking the chart I've put together, which tells me what emotions and physical issues bladder corresponds to, when it suddenly struck me that I've got nervous exhaustion.
Really, how could I not?
It's been a VERY eventful, stressful, challenging few months, and even though things are currently very calm and quiet (thank God), I live in a neighbourhood that comes quite high up a lot of people's 'dangerous' list.
And then there's the recent elections…and then there's my husband new business he's trying to get off the ground…and my new book and business…and then there's all my daughter's high-school stress…and then there's Pesach…'nuff said.
Nervous exhaustion happens when you've been living on your nerves for so long, you've kind of forgotten there's another, better, way of being.
Now I've got the message, I'm trying to build in a bit more R&R to my life, so I can start to recuperate from all the stress of the last few months. That means I've gone back to my cooked veggies and quinoa; I've stopped postponing breakfast until lunchtime; and I'm going to bed early enough.
I'm also asking God to help me calm down a bit, and that's also making me feel much better.
I've said it before, and I'm sure I'll say it again: illnesses come to teach us something, to show us where we need to work, fix or change something. God's been waving a big flag at me for months to slow down, believe more, and eat more kohlrabi. Ironically, I've been so busy setting up JEMI, and writing books about what our illnesses are coming to teach us, I missed my own warning signs.
But He didn't give up on me, and hopefully, I really got the message now. At least, until next time. ☺