I threw myself into work to compensate for all the inner turmoil that was permanently roiling under the surface, and as long as I had a deadline to meet, or a challenging project to complete, I was too busy to think about anything else and life was OK.
Except, it wasn't really. I was still getting debilitating depressions that could last for days and even weeks. I was still secretly nervous and anxious about most things; I couldn't sleep properly, and had very disrupted sleep; I flipped from one minor illness to the next, with gastic flu being a particular favourite. I felt angry, and dissatisfied and frustrated with my life, most of the time.
In 2005, I moved country from the UK to Israel, and that's when the wheels really came off the bus. The move was incredibly stressful on a number of fronts, and all my secret demons that I'd been trying so hard to keep contained all my life, suddenly exploded out of their hiding place.
My depressions got so bad, there were whole days I couldn't get out of bed. My fears went through the roof - I was scared of everything, from developing a terminal illness, to being robbed, to going flat broke.
My anxiety hit new heights, while my life seemed to be hitting new lows.
You can hide from yourself, and your emotional issues pretty well, as long as your life is going smoothly. But I think God decided that He didn't want me to hide anymore; instead, He wanted me to face down my inner demons, to find out what was really causing them, and then to find a way through to the other side, without resorting to drugs or shrinks.
Not that I didn't try the shrinks, because of course, I did: At one point, I had three different therapists on two different continents, all trying to push me on to anti-depressants because I'd made the mistake of crying in their office.
The more I talked to them, the worse I felt. The more I talked to them, the more confused and upset I became.
After a few months of 'therapy', I got a flash of clarity that there had to be another way, a way that wasn't going to cost a fortune, and that would give me real solutions, in real time, to my very real problems.
I've spent the last decade developing that 'other way', and JEMI is the result.
There are two main things that set JEMI apart from most of the other approaches to emotional and mental health:
1) JEMI recognises that spiritual, emotional / mental and physical health are all intertwined. Each affects, and is affected by, the other, which means that true holistic health has to take mind, body AND SOUL into account.
2) God is centre-stage, in JEMI's holistic healing paradigm.
Everything you'll learn on this website works for real people, and their real problems. I won't recommend a tool, technique or book on JEMI unless I've tried it out extensively, and seen great results from it.
After 30 years of suffering from my out-of-control emotions, and another 10 years learning how to deal with them in a productive way, I started JEMI so I could share everything I've learned with you.
The approach you'll find on this website has brought me through 2 bankruptcies, 2 forced house sales, 6 moves in less than 10 years (always to somewhere new…), a couple of serious health scares, 4 different careers and three wars (and of course, I'm leaving the really juicy stuff out… )
If it helped me to get past my depressions, and to make my panic attacks, anxieties and fears a thing of the past, and to wake up most days with a smile on my face, then I firmly believe that it can help you, too.